-12:20 AM

http://fruished.blogspot.com

haha. for kicks.

relink pls.


-9:32 PM

i dont think i forgot.

i think i stopped.

i stopped.


-8:15 PM

; please dont let what you told me back then be a lie.
please dont.

for that would be the only thing that would kill me.
now.

my grandma cooks nice (:
and my uncle makes not-bad konnyaku jelly.
and my baby cousin is a whiny little thingie.

but he looks so cute since he's shaved bald.
like really really cute.
unlike the polo and cross guys who just look.
weird.
(okay la still cute i guess. except the little-boy cute look is abit out of fashion for 17 year old male entities)

bald and white. that is.
the polo/cross guys are generally bald and black.
generally black. lol.

all the apollo people are at apollo fac outing now.
and the rest of the people are out boozing the night away.
or something.

i should.
go and mug.


-9:55 AM

; will the past be a shadow that will follow us round
will these memories keep playing like a film without sound.

im not going to do a joseph and shamelessly request for stuff here.
lol. no offense to him of course my dear er... kor. ^^

but anyway.

MY PRETTY HOT SEXY SUBCOMM HEAD WAS ABSOLUTELY AWESOME YESTERDAY :D
(especially her body pumps. everybody loved it i swear.)

kay next week's gonna be a busybusy week. three tests and still have to keep up with projectwork(s) and all... gwarrr.

but its okay that's just part of it. there's another part of next week thats equally important which i mustmustmustmustmust do. yes.

my mummy's side of the family is celebrating mother's day today at my grandma's house... lol.
to all of you little kiddies who forgot. the actual date is actually next sunday so go starve for the next week and buy mummy a present. (:

i need to go bathe soon lol i have a meeting in two hours! xS

every once in awhile we go through this period of self doubt and uncertainty... and you dont stop wondering about the 101 million things that have happened and whether the choices you made were right. but since you've made them you just gotta hold on tight and sit through the ride. somehow it will be okay. even if it seems like it isnt.

we got manymany more years to go.

and if you jump i'll break your fall.

i swear no one reads this blog anymore lol.

okay gotta go bathe. byebye (:


-10:12 PM

; what if i can never see you again...?

everything seems like a drag these days.
--- and life is so tiring we have to get past it.

you can only cry silent tears.
and wipe it.
away.

what would you do if i died tomorrow.
what would you say? what would you do...?
would you even care...?

what if today was the last day id ever see you?
what if tomorrow,
someone turned out the lights forever.

tell me... what if...?

how many decisions would you change if you could turn back time...?

alot...

my eyes are hurting lots there days. it hasnt recovered since math test which i had to pon. and i dont even know what the reason for the stinging/burning sensation is... the doctor said it was just mild sore eyes since painful eyes isnt generaly a symptom of... something else more serious.. but i dont think its supposed to last this long.

my tetanus shot is hurting really badly. and i have no idea why either. shao says its supposed to be either it got whacked too much or its infected. but i dont think its either so i will just. er. leave it and hope it gets better.

it hurt alot today when i got home early from school. i was suppposed to leave the house after i bathed but it was hurting too much so i just lazed around bed.. and fell asleep. and woke up in random intervals. until like at 1 i was about to leave the house... and it started to rain. so i decided to wait out the rain... it turned out to be like just a passing shower or something. which passed rather quickly. but id fallen asleep so i didnt wake up (except to reply smses) till... i dunno. 3 plus. and then i lazed around in bed in a general state of wooziness till 4. when i finally decided to get up and go meet shao/lyn/char.

and my arm was still hurting. i didnt get to play pool with them anyway ): coz my arm was hurting too much. i didnt want to risk it. so ohwell. ): but i managed to go down to... wheresthatplacecalled. merchant point/rd. to check out some stuff. so yeah. then i went home.

im sorry for ponning stj. haha. i know free food. i get to extort food/drink from zhixiang randomly already anyway so stj is still okay lah. but ohwell hope you guys enjoyed it! :D and thank you seniors. haha.

annual track and field gets worse and worse every year. or maybe after 4 years of being at the same location watching the same things and all that... you get sick of it. and now i cant find eli korkor to go harass or something anymore. ): we talked to ms chooi, mrs lim, mr lee, ms teo. and ms teo was quite funny we didnt stop laughing for awhile. oh and we finally "cleared up" stuff about the GG incident. was a rather disappointing conclusion but ohwell. i ponned like a quarter of it. coz i went back to college for awhile and got distracted by a tiny female entity whom ive ignored for a long time. haha. ohwell. sometimes we have to go back to the past for awhile. i saw the 410-er and the 410-er's boyfriend. i noticed something about the way they behave towards each other. okay it still a scary thought i guess. but. i detected the... attraction thing. the way two people who... love care about each other behave. towards each other la. mm. bittersweet. as usual.

i cant wait for tomorrow to pass. i cant bear being at home.

the more the days pass the less i feel with you.
and the less i really say...

the less i really say. as if you really ever listened in the first place anyway.

maybe it was always meant to be this way.

the last time i felt this way was... last year? i think. around. late june/early july. if you know me youd know why i guess. so yeah it just feels the same way all over again. maybe i had more... people. then. or maybe not more. closer. people. who took my thoughts away. and loosened the strings that i felt were being tightened around my neck.

when its all so much pent up inside
you feel like throwing up.

i dont even really know what im doing. haha. just zham. just zham all the way. it will be fine.
it will be fine. ;_;

my eyes are hurting again. i should go sleep soon.

hey PRETTY AND HOT SUBCOMM HEAD. you dont read my blog. haha you dont have much time for anything now much less reading my blog la lol. but anyway. all the best for dance night pretty girl :D i can say that i know its tiring and all that. although i cant say i know exactly how it feels like. but go girl :D (then after dn i can flood you with work muahaha) but yes. :D ALL THE BEST.

i will have to post this message for my other two subcomm darlings soon. gwarr...

kay. i gotta go do work. or rest. either one.

i have to rush out stuff by the end of this week. and mug for 3 tests next week. and do homework. blood test results out tomorrow! finally at last i will know my blood type! i have manymany things to do. and i need energy to do it. RED BULL. GIVES YOU WINGS (and so does kotex. ;) ) but i hate red bull. so i will take time to catch up on 8 hours of sleep tonight. or something. or at least 7 hours. ive been falling asleep once my head hits the pillow lately. i will it will happen tonight too.

the doctor did warn me that tetanus shot might give me a fever. i dont mind the fever. but why in heaven does it have to hurt so much that even moving my arm causes it to ache. ): gwarr.

this is the end of our song.


-8:52 PM

; but i can show you what love means

justini came for kidsread with me today (:

he helped me to tutor noel, yanbin and sokwei. so helpful right! :D and well today we got a special delivery of... random stuff. i should have taken photos of it to put up here but well we were too busy laughing at it to bother. one was like. THERE WAS AN OLD WOMAN WHO ATE A FLY! and then they had this puppet of an old woman. and her mouth is... open-able to a bag (her stomach) so its like you read the poem, then you put the various... animals/insects in one by one. i cant remember the order and the animals involved. besides the fly the spider the cat the sheep and stuff like that. but i remember the last two line!

an old woman ate a... cow. or horse.
and of course she died.

... someone tell me what they're teaching kids these days!

anyway after kidsread we bummed around for awhile he gave me suggestions for the uk band banner... messed around with my comp... then he played his harmonica for me! okay la not really for me. he just played it. oh he alternated between the paper blowing one and the harmonica. and i have to say he's getting really good at it. he played somewhere over the rainbow. i think. he played xi shui chang liu and yue liang dai biao wo de xin and take me to your heart and paint my love and yar. ((((((((: it was nice.

so and then i showed him my bruise. and my cut. which he didnt notice because you know i have a fringe which kind of covers it vaguely. but yar. being him he was like "WHO PUNCHED YOU :D!" =____= but yar okay.

after that it was just being emo lonely going around on my own.

but anyway that was just today in general. i wills have to... bathe and then do uk band banner. and then go mug like... in the next 3 hours or so that i have left if i want to sleep by 12 so that i dont get ugly eyebags tomorrow morning or something.

so tata (:


-10:06 AM

; of days past

yesterday. was a mix of a good and bad day. but no it wasnt really a neutral day. it was more of a both good stuff and bad stuff happens day.

i got extra sleep though. the beauty of mathh.... (: aiyah okay i have to say i felt abit guilty since like the mac people go take time to plan all this out and all but we dont really appreciate it and stuff but. i dunno. its just the entire. math. thing. and i have an excuse AM AN ARTS STUDENT! but yeah. ):

fac head elections were quite fun. i almost died laughing watching minjian (try) to dance. jiawei was a rather good dancer anyway. but well. congrats JOHN ONG and RACHEL CHNG. fac head and dep fac head. girly-guy and man-woman. (: lead ares well. congrats to ming daddy also for getting dep fac head for apollo. (:

but maybe i overmugged geog or something because after that my eyes (left eye in particular) became very very very red and everyone was telling me that so i was quite worried. :( and there was a general high pressure in the left eye which was giving me a headache. but i had to go for igroup meeting to discuss proposal so nevermind i just went anyway. and a very nice lcp said he'd wait around if i needed to talk so i made him wait. (:

and some clever guy while i was in a huge hurry and walking past decided to raise his hand to hit something with the stupid bubble tea straw collection. and effectively hit me. yeah in the face. so now i have a cut from the nose to the eyebrow and a bruise over the left eye. which im sure completely helps the condition of that eye alot. its ugly. and it will be covered up with my fringe until i think of some evil way that i can go sue the guy for physically injuring me. grah.

and after igroup meeting (speaking of which i have to go start on work soon. does anyone have an esperanza ticket i can vaguely reference?) we went to walk and talk for abit... and jialin asked me to try and find the uncle in charge of setting up the tentage for csm and ask him for like maybe a quote or something. and i think we all almost died of heart attacks coz it turned out to be damn expensive.

and so we went and bugged the two cross guys who were in the vicinity for an emergency meeting. and somehow managed to leave school at 9. grah. and take dinner at like almost 10. so i got home. fettered around with some stuff. and my eyes started to swell. so i decided to just go sleep. yes.

sighs. well. i have to go off soon. and do work. and mug. and all that.

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