-10:12 PM

; what if i can never see you again...?

everything seems like a drag these days.
--- and life is so tiring we have to get past it.

you can only cry silent tears.
and wipe it.
away.

what would you do if i died tomorrow.
what would you say? what would you do...?
would you even care...?

what if today was the last day id ever see you?
what if tomorrow,
someone turned out the lights forever.

tell me... what if...?

how many decisions would you change if you could turn back time...?

alot...

my eyes are hurting lots there days. it hasnt recovered since math test which i had to pon. and i dont even know what the reason for the stinging/burning sensation is... the doctor said it was just mild sore eyes since painful eyes isnt generaly a symptom of... something else more serious.. but i dont think its supposed to last this long.

my tetanus shot is hurting really badly. and i have no idea why either. shao says its supposed to be either it got whacked too much or its infected. but i dont think its either so i will just. er. leave it and hope it gets better.

it hurt alot today when i got home early from school. i was suppposed to leave the house after i bathed but it was hurting too much so i just lazed around bed.. and fell asleep. and woke up in random intervals. until like at 1 i was about to leave the house... and it started to rain. so i decided to wait out the rain... it turned out to be like just a passing shower or something. which passed rather quickly. but id fallen asleep so i didnt wake up (except to reply smses) till... i dunno. 3 plus. and then i lazed around in bed in a general state of wooziness till 4. when i finally decided to get up and go meet shao/lyn/char.

and my arm was still hurting. i didnt get to play pool with them anyway ): coz my arm was hurting too much. i didnt want to risk it. so ohwell. ): but i managed to go down to... wheresthatplacecalled. merchant point/rd. to check out some stuff. so yeah. then i went home.

im sorry for ponning stj. haha. i know free food. i get to extort food/drink from zhixiang randomly already anyway so stj is still okay lah. but ohwell hope you guys enjoyed it! :D and thank you seniors. haha.

annual track and field gets worse and worse every year. or maybe after 4 years of being at the same location watching the same things and all that... you get sick of it. and now i cant find eli korkor to go harass or something anymore. ): we talked to ms chooi, mrs lim, mr lee, ms teo. and ms teo was quite funny we didnt stop laughing for awhile. oh and we finally "cleared up" stuff about the GG incident. was a rather disappointing conclusion but ohwell. i ponned like a quarter of it. coz i went back to college for awhile and got distracted by a tiny female entity whom ive ignored for a long time. haha. ohwell. sometimes we have to go back to the past for awhile. i saw the 410-er and the 410-er's boyfriend. i noticed something about the way they behave towards each other. okay it still a scary thought i guess. but. i detected the... attraction thing. the way two people who... love care about each other behave. towards each other la. mm. bittersweet. as usual.

i cant wait for tomorrow to pass. i cant bear being at home.

the more the days pass the less i feel with you.
and the less i really say...

the less i really say. as if you really ever listened in the first place anyway.

maybe it was always meant to be this way.

the last time i felt this way was... last year? i think. around. late june/early july. if you know me youd know why i guess. so yeah it just feels the same way all over again. maybe i had more... people. then. or maybe not more. closer. people. who took my thoughts away. and loosened the strings that i felt were being tightened around my neck.

when its all so much pent up inside
you feel like throwing up.

i dont even really know what im doing. haha. just zham. just zham all the way. it will be fine.
it will be fine. ;_;

my eyes are hurting again. i should go sleep soon.

hey PRETTY AND HOT SUBCOMM HEAD. you dont read my blog. haha you dont have much time for anything now much less reading my blog la lol. but anyway. all the best for dance night pretty girl :D i can say that i know its tiring and all that. although i cant say i know exactly how it feels like. but go girl :D (then after dn i can flood you with work muahaha) but yes. :D ALL THE BEST.

i will have to post this message for my other two subcomm darlings soon. gwarr...

kay. i gotta go do work. or rest. either one.

i have to rush out stuff by the end of this week. and mug for 3 tests next week. and do homework. blood test results out tomorrow! finally at last i will know my blood type! i have manymany things to do. and i need energy to do it. RED BULL. GIVES YOU WINGS (and so does kotex. ;) ) but i hate red bull. so i will take time to catch up on 8 hours of sleep tonight. or something. or at least 7 hours. ive been falling asleep once my head hits the pillow lately. i will it will happen tonight too.

the doctor did warn me that tetanus shot might give me a fever. i dont mind the fever. but why in heaven does it have to hurt so much that even moving my arm causes it to ache. ): gwarr.

this is the end of our song.


-8:52 PM

; but i can show you what love means

justini came for kidsread with me today (:

he helped me to tutor noel, yanbin and sokwei. so helpful right! :D and well today we got a special delivery of... random stuff. i should have taken photos of it to put up here but well we were too busy laughing at it to bother. one was like. THERE WAS AN OLD WOMAN WHO ATE A FLY! and then they had this puppet of an old woman. and her mouth is... open-able to a bag (her stomach) so its like you read the poem, then you put the various... animals/insects in one by one. i cant remember the order and the animals involved. besides the fly the spider the cat the sheep and stuff like that. but i remember the last two line!

an old woman ate a... cow. or horse.
and of course she died.

... someone tell me what they're teaching kids these days!

anyway after kidsread we bummed around for awhile he gave me suggestions for the uk band banner... messed around with my comp... then he played his harmonica for me! okay la not really for me. he just played it. oh he alternated between the paper blowing one and the harmonica. and i have to say he's getting really good at it. he played somewhere over the rainbow. i think. he played xi shui chang liu and yue liang dai biao wo de xin and take me to your heart and paint my love and yar. ((((((((: it was nice.

so and then i showed him my bruise. and my cut. which he didnt notice because you know i have a fringe which kind of covers it vaguely. but yar. being him he was like "WHO PUNCHED YOU :D!" =____= but yar okay.

after that it was just being emo lonely going around on my own.

but anyway that was just today in general. i wills have to... bathe and then do uk band banner. and then go mug like... in the next 3 hours or so that i have left if i want to sleep by 12 so that i dont get ugly eyebags tomorrow morning or something.

so tata (:


-10:06 AM

; of days past

yesterday. was a mix of a good and bad day. but no it wasnt really a neutral day. it was more of a both good stuff and bad stuff happens day.

i got extra sleep though. the beauty of mathh.... (: aiyah okay i have to say i felt abit guilty since like the mac people go take time to plan all this out and all but we dont really appreciate it and stuff but. i dunno. its just the entire. math. thing. and i have an excuse AM AN ARTS STUDENT! but yeah. ):

fac head elections were quite fun. i almost died laughing watching minjian (try) to dance. jiawei was a rather good dancer anyway. but well. congrats JOHN ONG and RACHEL CHNG. fac head and dep fac head. girly-guy and man-woman. (: lead ares well. congrats to ming daddy also for getting dep fac head for apollo. (:

but maybe i overmugged geog or something because after that my eyes (left eye in particular) became very very very red and everyone was telling me that so i was quite worried. :( and there was a general high pressure in the left eye which was giving me a headache. but i had to go for igroup meeting to discuss proposal so nevermind i just went anyway. and a very nice lcp said he'd wait around if i needed to talk so i made him wait. (:

and some clever guy while i was in a huge hurry and walking past decided to raise his hand to hit something with the stupid bubble tea straw collection. and effectively hit me. yeah in the face. so now i have a cut from the nose to the eyebrow and a bruise over the left eye. which im sure completely helps the condition of that eye alot. its ugly. and it will be covered up with my fringe until i think of some evil way that i can go sue the guy for physically injuring me. grah.

and after igroup meeting (speaking of which i have to go start on work soon. does anyone have an esperanza ticket i can vaguely reference?) we went to walk and talk for abit... and jialin asked me to try and find the uncle in charge of setting up the tentage for csm and ask him for like maybe a quote or something. and i think we all almost died of heart attacks coz it turned out to be damn expensive.

and so we went and bugged the two cross guys who were in the vicinity for an emergency meeting. and somehow managed to leave school at 9. grah. and take dinner at like almost 10. so i got home. fettered around with some stuff. and my eyes started to swell. so i decided to just go sleep. yes.

sighs. well. i have to go off soon. and do work. and mug. and all that.

):


-9:33 PM

; what are you afraid of?

today like. 4 people or so commented that i changed my hairstyle. but i didnt! i merely tied it up thats all i dont see how thats considered 'changing' it.

but anyway i had quite a sustained interest in the math gameshow thing (although imo its still quite. er. ^_.) until stuff happened. but besides that it was just... alright. i guess.

i almost fell asleep in math. but then i got distracted and ms kwee kind of scolded me for being distracted. but she is very nice. haha (: and okay besides that tag was being damn lame and going "why maclaurin's series? why not macdonald's series? then we can have macflurry macchicken macsundae..." er.

and we had a discussion on the expectations of the unobvious "other half". and we concluded that _______ was a relatively demanding half. yes.

i had to skip lit tutorial because it was getting damn exhausting and i couldnt take it anymore. but nicenice rachel collected notes for me. : D! and zhixiang bought me cookies for extra sugar. (: thank you!!!!

and after school I HAD A BADMINTON SHOWDOWN with changpeng. which i won! bwahahaha so now luey chun officially declares that changpeng is not male. :D but i bet changpeng is gonna demand a rematch sometime because (the wind was blowing in my favour) he was super bushuang (:

ocip nepal! i took this long to realize that the project head (kheexuan) was the song i/c for jumpstart `08 lol. but anyway i have to go research primary school books again roar. ): i kinda like my comm. even if its overpacked with testosterone (4 guys and me...) and we always have fun during meetings coz we mention random crazy stuff like. YOU CAN'T TELL THEM DONT EAT FRIED CHICKEN WHEN THEY DONT EVEN EAT CHICKEN. and yeah. but lol ohwell. : D it was fun. im starting to like ocip orientation activities more and more. maybe because im getting to know more people and thus feeling less left out since everyone else seems to have a friend. like my comm. and proj head and proj vice head and etcetc. (:

and i was super HIGH today playing dumb crappy games like FUZZYWUZZY. and JOHNNY WOOSH and HOW MANY MEHMEH JUMP OVER THE WALL. lol. i first explained fuzzywuzzy to shao after she was left suffering over what it was about. then clare taught me johnny woosh and how many mehmehs. lol. then me and shao made lynette suffer over the mehmeh one during lit. and i looked hilarious once i think because i had to do it SUPER obviously so that lyn would get it. but she got it in the end. : D

HOW MANY MEHMEH JUMP OVER THE WALL!

and then i kept repeating it and laughing and wandering around. and repeating it and laughing.

i need to get around to mugging geog. okay i started. for like an hour plusplus in school today before i got distracted (talking to someone) then got back to my work for abit. and shao asked her mum to give me a lift home so i managed to get home around 815. (: -ishappy- i get so much more work done in school.

good luck to everyone who's running for interact exco! (:
especially those that i actually know. er. xinmei, sophia, natalie(a), marcus, weilin, yujie, etcetc. (:

okay i completely need to get down to work. : D

just to be there anytime that you need.


-6:54 PM

; before its too late


-8:29 PM

; when the little things can make you happy.
you'll be happy much more often.

thank you lcp for talking to me today (:

i feel unusually lighthearted today-night. which i guess translates into.... HAPPY (: quite a contrast from the whole of school today.

i dont know why either. but i just am.

maybe because lcp talked to me today and his 1928374198374 random crap made me laugh. like alot.
and drums made me happy. (and no its not because i whacked super hard or something.)
or because i had a very quick 20 minutes haircut with a nice hairdresser and cut it nice. (:
or because i this month's bill is lesser than last month's (and manymany months) by about half.

but anyway. happiness aside. i have to go and mug 1)fac dance 2)xi shui chang liu 3) yue liang dai biao wo de xin 4)chang yi shou hua chu de ge and... 5) shit i forgot... and oh yeah practice folding origami butterflies before marcus hangs me by my toes tomorrow.

and oh yeah prepare materials for meeting tonight and relevant submissions over the next two days.

busy busy. but ohwell when one is happy work gets alot easier. i confess seeing the world vision thingy today affected me a little. as in seeing all the statistics and all that... >_>

ohwell. maybe that will encourage me to work harder for inspire and ocip!
especially ocip when my entire comm is made of guys... lol ohwell.

would you stay a little while,
and touch me with your smile...

so now its just one thing i have to learn to get used to.
i hope i do. (:


-10:56 PM

; staring straight, back at me.

i seriously think i need to emo sometimes and not always (try) to appear so happy all the time.

i wish very much to sleep soon. because my eyes feel like they're popping out again. but tutorial 10 for econs is perpetually on my mind. even though i dont know how to do it.

this is the start of feeling like a failure at life.
tonight is reflective mood. (and exhausted) which means. let me take one night to emo. just one night.

i gave up something today that i thought i might have really wanted. i dont know whether i'll regret having given it up. but i did anyway. and along the way i will be giving up something else of a similar nature. so yeah...

i do enjoy tutoring at my commserve. but maybe thats coz i got a really good girl on my first try who is rather attentive (though i almost caught her falling asleep once) and actually tries to answer me. so yeah... i wish i could go more often though. but everyday is practically jampacked with something or the other. its so... rarrgh. T_T

i dont know if i kind of miss the girl i used to be. within my own little... circle of people. just being happy go lucky and all that. oh yeah and emoing whenever i felt like it. and all that kind of things. i dont know if it makes sense to say i was happier then. because i emoed more. which means i couldnt have been happier then since i emoed so much.

i guess maybe. i was less....
burdened.

iono.
i wish i could feel happy from the deepdeep down inside more.
maybe one day i will.

im finding myself belonging nowhere in particular now. or belonging everywhere. but not really. being part of everywhere. i think. and sometimes its frustrating because i feel so... excluded (read: extra) when im in the "general vicinity". which often just makes me avoid altogether. its not so bad. coz generally someone will still be around somewhere that i can temporarily leech on to for that hour or so. but i dont know. the feeling of exclusion sucks. not in a. jealous. i want to be part of it way. because i understand that we cant always be part of everything and all that. its just an exclusion in a... i dont like being around anymore because i feel like my presence is not welcomed. kind of thing. like sitting around during a conversation about something i know nothing about. and feeling like im not welcomed there coz im not supposed to know things. i guess.

i dont really know how to explain it. properly. but whatever. it doesnt matter.

muchthanks and lotsoflove to the people who are there to make me feel less excluded. who let me leech on to them for about an hour or half an hour. to just. look less sorrowful and lonely wanding around like a lost soul in hwachong.

and you. its still about you. it has been about you this entire while. and things have just. got to change, i guess. and i know. or no, actually i dont. im torn between reading too much and not reading at all. or reading excessively much. i dont know i dont know. i dont even want to think about it anymore. its just such a tear apart kind of feeling. you've always mastered the dao reaction so well i learn to turn my head away and walk away and forget about it. but still. i dont know how much has changed. even. i need to let go of this weight im carrying. but i cant because i dont want to either.

-rubseyes-

do we always care for people without showing them that we do. and if we always do that. then why dont we show them that we do...? why dont we tell the people whom we care about that we do...? or show them you care through the little things you do everyday. why why cant we do that. why do we always wait and wait.and be so afraid. whywhywhywhywhy.

WHY.


-6:57 PM

; tell me something tonight that i dont know.

show me a smile thats meant for only me

let me know what living for tomorrow means.

i was caught in bed today with hugeredbloodshoteyes which looked positively like the lower part of my eyes was internally haemorrhaging.

but no it wasnt.

and i do wish id been able to go to school. ): ohwell i'll be suffering mathtest long after you guys have been over and done with it!

haha i had to mention this as a sidenote:

thankyou
1) rachel for collecting all my notes test and tutorials (:
2) prettyprettygirl jolene for trying to help me get mskwee's number
3) amanda my awesome jie for giving me her number

:D i swear a day not in school would be completely horrible if it werent for nicenice people to help me stay updated.


-8:12 PM

; starting at forever and ending at never

i saw a lizard lying along the road today. it wasnt one of those teeny tiny house lizards. i dont know what it was. maybe a chameleon. although i doubt it since it was greenish. or some related species. but it was relatively long anyway.

it was lying innocuously along the side of the road. and i didnt notice it until some guy walked past and kept staring at it till he was like 10m away or so. and throughout the 20 minutes that i was waiting for my parents to come and pick me up, i was counting the number of cars that went by and the number of people who noticed it.

at first i wasnt sure whether it had already died. and i wanted to poke it with a stick to check. but i didnt want to because i was of the belief that germs can crawl up twigs within two seconds and infect me with some unknown disease that i will die of on the spot. (providing the twig doesnt already have 2394827394234 germs to speak of.) and secondly if the innocuous looking... thing were to be still alive, it would leap up and possibly eat me alive. so no thanks. i was thinking of poking it with my shoe. but i was in heels. so. nono. and i wasnt about to squat down like some kid along the pavement and look it in the eyes.

i might possibly have screamed and run away.

so at first i suspected that it was a hit-and-run accident. car comes - flattens lizard - lizard dies. but i watched the cars. none had a direct hit (which would also have conveniently confirmed my suspicion that it was dead) although several (5/6) had a few near misses. by near i mean running over the tiny tip of its tail. possibly. since the tail was so long already. oh and some guy almost stepped on it without noticing it there. but again it was a near miss. (and i confess i was sorely disappointed that he hadnt hit the target)

a random guy walked by and pointed it out to his female companion. and she took the effort to stop talking for about... 2 seconds to say "EWWWWWWW" before instantly continuing where she left off. she didnt stop talking even when i was out of hearing range. i could see her hands moving animatedly as she spoke. and her guy companion merely walked on and (pretended to) listen.

yes i do actually wonder how females can talk so much.

behind them was a teenage boy who noticed it and stopped for a moment to stare at it. like me, he seemed to contemplate the possibility of it being alive and seemed to want to step on it just to check it out. but he had nice moderate blue shoes which he probably eventually decided against sacrificing. because he carried along his way. so i was once again sorely disappointed. but i thought the nice shoes were mighty worth it.

an old lady with an umbrella came hobbling by. and i was hoping that she would poke it. but she didnt. and another guy was walking along the side of the road. until he saw the lizard. then he delicately stepped on to the pavement to avoid treading on it.

so after 20 minutes of lizard inactivity and a few near misses but no direct hits. i concluded that it was dead. and when my parents finally arrived at the scene of crime. i was well and truly sick of analyzing its status and cause of death.

so final report: death. by being fried on the tarmac.(:

and yesterday over dinner i was brutally attacked constantly hounded by a huge black ugly dog. he kept coming next to me and i was getting gradually annoyed at why there was a huge black dog roaming around the area. and since i didnt want it sniffing around my bag and possibly peeing on it i had to hug my bag and laptop to me for the entire one and a half hours that my dad refused to budge.

he scared a rather pretty looking indian missus next to me. and a rather (annoying) shrieky little girl two tables down who clambered onto her father's lap to get away from it.

we later discovered that it kept coming around the area coz there was a (male) bulldog about three tables down. i suppose blackie, my "affectionate" term for the huge black ugly thing. was rather shy about meeting mr. bulldog. coz he kept coming around the area but never going directly next to mr. bulldog.

now i have to protest that im not against dogs falling in love and well. dating. or fornicating. whichever one was on blackie's and mr. bulldog's mind yesterday night. but i do wish they would do it far away from me. like. farr farrrrrrrrr away. =_=

so anyway. mr. bulldog finally had to go. so his owner tugged him away. and blackie, sensing that her beloved was leaving, ran after him. and then shifted away fearfully when mr. bulldog made a last attempt at making friends with her. so that was it. i supposed it was rather regretful that their "love" story ended that way. but ohwell.

but anyway. blackie proceeded to clean herself under the table where mr. bulldog and owners had previously sat at. its the smell thing i suppose. but he did continue to terrorize other patrons of the small... eatery. i wont call it a restaurant coz its not. but i cant possibly call it a kopitiam either, coz it wasnt a kopitiam. i dont even know if it selled kopi at all.


on a completely different note.

i endured four hours of math tuition today and understood differentiation more than i ever understood in half a term of differentiation lectures.

i realized today that my eyes were bloodshot. it couldnt be from lack of sleep because ive been sleeping 7/8 hours as i always do on weekends. so either my tear glands are rotting away and not effectively moisturizing my eyes... or something. i dont know. or as someone remarked. "the veins in your eyes look like they're gonna pop out anytime." that's a rather scary thought, i have to admit. so right now i will go mug math and make a shot at 5 hours of sleep tonight. at least.


-10:21 PM

; and there's no mountain too high
no river too wide
sing out this song and i'll be there by your side

i will not succumb to pressure.
i will not give up so easily.
i will not kill myself in the process of trying to achieve more.
i will not lose track of my commitments.

grah.

i realized my contact lists in msn have undergone a major revamp since like. last year when it used to read 'rgps' 'ny' 'familie' and all other. random names. the only one thats been retained since last year is the general one which everyone comes under anyway. >_> now my contact list reads like.

a10
inspire`o8
ocip nepal `o8
og35!!

how boring. ): and i havent added one that reads "kidsread/tiongbahrucc"

but nevermind.

i should seriously be mugging for math now. but i feel completely unmotivated to do so. >_>

my back has started peeling from the sunburn and it feels very much like the time that my scalp peeled from sunburn as well and my mum thought it was dandruff. but arr. i have a U-shaped tan both back and front. its not that obvious so i guess its not that ugly. but still. ): i swear i need to go for all recees with long sleeved turtlenecks in future. either that or something that wouldnt result in horrible looking tan lines. ):

i honestly am starting to wonder how do i manage my commitments. o_o coz i have cca. which i have to find time to go for. and then so many project meetings which are held on saturdays. and some on school days as well. and (me being typical me) im not very willing to forgo anything. and kidsread is one of them. but i dunno. after 2 years +++ of sticking with the same place. you kind of develop an emotional attachment to it. even if attendance rate is on an all time low. ^^ but i have a duty to other stuff as well. which basically kind of more or less (should) take precedence over kidsread. but i wanna take part in so many other things. like continuing yec stuff. oh yeah and keeping up work level for inspire. rawrr. and other stuff.

i mustmust manage this. somehowsomehow.


-8:45 PM

the in-house counsellor feels redundant now. lol. (:
but i think im supposed to be happy that im redundant. yes.

we played a rather ridiculous stepping game today. at the stone benches. the one behind the bookshop. coz you see. there were many ants. so when we sat down and talked i sub-consciously stepped on the ants. so by the time we were... going to leave. there was this huge area of black dots. which were once ants but were now dead ants. (: and so later for some reason shao and i decided to show rachel the... area... and we killed more ants and figured that the ants probably were living under the stone stool. so dear yumeng came by so we got him to er. shift the stone bench slightly. and we werent wrong... so this whole mass of ants came streaming out and so we got to play the stepping game longer and kills more ants. the stool sounds hollow, anyhow. so we're thinking there's a huge ant's nest inside which we didnt really want to discover. so if any of you decide that you wish to discover the mysterious depths of the stools (and possibly the table) there. be my guest. but i recommend you arm yourselves with one or two cans of baygon.

i liked my oreo chocolate today. i just hope i dont have to pay too dearly for getting it. ):

i have been trying to be on task in my schoolwork. trying. i cant explain this burst of love joy and happiness sudden desire to do my work properly. but well. doing your work properly and doing your work well is two rather different things. i need to spend some time figuring out maths and econs this weekend. and im already lagging behind in my work. as in. the understanding of what im taught. not as in. homework-work. i hope i catch up soon.

hmmm.
the harder i try the less i really actually care.

im starting to annoy myself again with the way i treat many things. the. heck care attitude. almost. i think ive lost a certain passion for the things im doing. or i simply dont know why im doing it. or maybe im just doing it because... i dont even know. maybe i just do it because i think i should...? if that even makes sense at all. just doing it because i think i have a duty to... i dunno. ohwell.

but yet. i think ive been happier lately than ive been in... awhile... i guess. ever since. everything happened. and all. and im finding out (after so long) what it really means to create your own happiness. for yourself. i havent smiled as often as i have recently... in ages. even if some of the smiles were somewhat forced. at first. coz most of the times i guess. when i feel shitty. but still force out a smile anyway. and go do random other stuff and laugh and all that. i feel better in the end. i guess. its not really quite meaning or purpose in life. but you just look so much better. and feel so much better about yourself than someone who just shuffles around schools and mopes.

well. THANKYOU!!! to all the special people who made it somehow easier the past few weeks or so. jx, lcp, sh, ber, shao, deb, you, and manymany more people... and me. (: yesyes LIKE JX SAYS. we always have friends to help us through. and i think i wouldnt have gotten through as well as i did if you guys hadnt been there for me. so yeah. love you guys. so much. (:

i havent disappointed myself in the things ive been doing lately. and i hope that keeps up.

everyone's running for fac comm. its seems harder than council. and super scary. but thats okay. i dont intend to run for fac comm anyway. there are too many people who want positions in fac comm so much more than i do. they know what they want and they really want it. so i guess that alone makes them deserve it more. besides, i guess i want to focus more on other things and do well in those as well. like the various SLs that i want to do. ocip. schoolwork. kidsread (and i suppose, YEC). inspire. cca.

i realize im still missing out on alot of stuff that everyone (else) seems to be doing. BBI/VBC. faccomm. other cip. faculty events. random everythings. yeah. like how im not going for fac outing. and how i dont think i'll even make it for stj... (i sound very antisocial dont i?) but i think. since i (kind of) know what i want. i wanna focus on doing those things (especially) well first before anything else. mmhm.

alright. i is tired now. haha. there are so many things to do. so little time.

and you dont change anything anymore.

ARES!
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