rediscovering eden
You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive
A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close
So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close
How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far
dailies
Friday, April 4, 2008
-8:45 PM
the in-house counsellor feels redundant now. lol. (:
but i think im supposed to be happy that im redundant. yes.
we played a rather ridiculous stepping game today. at the stone benches. the one behind the bookshop. coz you see. there were many ants. so when we sat down and talked i
sub-consciously stepped on the ants. so by the time we were... going to leave. there was this huge area of black dots. which were once ants but were now
dead ants. (: and so later for some reason shao and i decided to show rachel the... area... and we killed more ants and figured that the ants probably were living under the stone stool. so dear yumeng came by so we got him to er. shift the stone bench slightly. and we werent wrong... so this whole mass of ants came streaming out and so we got to play the stepping game longer and kills more ants. the stool sounds hollow, anyhow. so we're thinking there's a huge ant's nest inside which we didnt really want to discover. so if any of you decide that you wish to discover the mysterious depths of the stools (and possibly the table) there. be my guest. but i recommend you arm yourselves with one or two cans of baygon.
i liked my oreo chocolate today. i just hope i dont have to pay too dearly for getting it. ):
i have been trying to be on task in my schoolwork.
trying. i cant explain this
burst of love joy and happiness sudden desire to do my work properly. but well. doing your work properly and doing your work well is two rather different things. i need to spend some time figuring out maths and econs this weekend. and im already lagging behind in my work. as in. the understanding of what im taught. not as in. homework-work. i hope i catch up soon.
hmmm.
the harder i try the less i really actually care.im starting to annoy myself again with the way i treat many things. the. heck care attitude. almost. i think ive lost a certain passion for the things im doing. or i simply dont know why im doing it. or maybe im just doing it because... i dont even know. maybe i just do it because i think i should...? if that even makes sense at all. just doing it because i think i have a duty to... i dunno. ohwell.
but yet. i think ive been happier lately than ive been in... awhile... i guess. ever since. everything happened. and all. and im finding out (after so long) what it really means to create your own happiness. for yourself. i havent smiled as often as i have recently... in ages. even if some of the smiles were somewhat forced. at first. coz most of the times i guess. when i feel shitty. but still force out a smile anyway. and go do random other stuff and laugh and all that. i feel better in the end. i guess. its not really quite meaning or purpose in life. but you just look so much better. and feel so much better about yourself than someone who just shuffles around schools and mopes.
well.
THANKYOU!!! to all the special people who made it somehow easier the past few weeks or so. jx, lcp, sh, ber, shao, deb,
you, and manymany more people... and me. (: yesyes LIKE JX SAYS. we always have friends to help us through. and i think i wouldnt have gotten through as well as i did if you guys hadnt been there for me. so yeah.
love you guys. so much. (:
i havent disappointed myself in the things ive been doing lately. and i hope that keeps up.
everyone's running for fac comm. its seems harder than council. and super scary. but thats okay. i dont intend to run for fac comm anyway. there are too many people who want positions in fac comm so much more than i do. they know what they want and they really want it. so i guess that alone makes them deserve it more. besides, i guess i want to focus more on other things and do well in those as well. like the various SLs that i want to do. ocip.
schoolwork. kidsread (and i suppose, YEC).
inspire. cca.i realize im still missing out on alot of stuff that everyone (else) seems to be doing. BBI/VBC. faccomm. other cip. faculty events. random everythings. yeah. like how im not going for fac outing. and how i dont think i'll even make it for stj... (i sound very antisocial dont i?) but i think. since i (kind of) know what i want. i wanna focus on doing those things (especially) well first before anything else. mmhm.
alright. i is tired now. haha. there are so many things to do. so little time.
and you dont change anything anymore.
