rediscovering eden
You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive
A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close
So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close
How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far
dailies
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
-10:12 PM
; what if i can never see you again...?
everything seems like a drag these days.
--- and life is so tiring we have to get past it.
you can only cry silent tears.
and wipe it.
away.
what would you do if i died tomorrow.
what would you say? what would you do...?
would you even care...?
what if today was the last day id ever see you?
what if tomorrow,
someone turned out the lights forever.
tell me... what if...?
how many decisions would you change if you could turn back time...?
alot...
my eyes are hurting lots there days. it hasnt recovered since math test which i had to pon. and i dont even know what the reason for the stinging/burning sensation is... the doctor said it was just mild sore eyes since painful eyes isnt generaly a symptom of... something else more serious.. but i dont think its supposed to last this long.
my tetanus shot is hurting really badly. and i have no idea why either. shao says its supposed to be either it got whacked too much or its infected. but i dont think its either so i will just. er. leave it and hope it gets better.
it hurt alot today when i got home early from school. i was suppposed to leave the house after i bathed but it was hurting too much so i just lazed around bed.. and fell asleep. and woke up in random intervals. until like at 1 i was about to leave the house... and it started to rain. so i decided to wait out the rain... it turned out to be like just a passing shower or something. which passed rather quickly. but id fallen asleep so i didnt wake up (except to reply smses) till... i dunno. 3 plus. and then i lazed around in bed in a general state of wooziness till 4. when i finally decided to get up and go meet shao/lyn/char.
and my arm was still hurting. i didnt get to play pool with them anyway ): coz my arm was hurting too much. i didnt want to risk it. so ohwell. ): but i managed to go down to... wheresthatplacecalled. merchant point/rd. to check out some stuff. so yeah. then i went home.
im sorry for ponning stj. haha. i know free food. i get to extort food/drink from zhixiang randomly already anyway so stj is still okay lah. but ohwell hope you guys enjoyed it! :D and thank you seniors. haha.
annual track and field gets worse and worse every year. or maybe after 4 years of being at the same location watching the same things and all that... you get sick of it. and now i cant find eli korkor to go harass or something anymore. ): we talked to ms chooi, mrs lim, mr lee, ms teo. and ms teo was quite funny we didnt stop laughing for awhile. oh and we finally "cleared up" stuff about the GG incident. was a rather disappointing conclusion but ohwell. i ponned like a quarter of it. coz i went back to college for awhile and got distracted by a tiny female entity whom ive ignored for a long time. haha. ohwell. sometimes we have to go back to the past for awhile. i saw the 410-er and the 410-er's boyfriend. i noticed something about the way they behave towards each other. okay it still a scary thought i guess. but. i detected the... attraction thing. the way two people who... love care about each other behave. towards each other la. mm. bittersweet. as usual.
i cant wait for tomorrow to pass. i cant bear being at home.
the more the days pass the less i feel with you.
and the less i really say...
the less i really say. as if you really ever listened in the first place anyway.
maybe it was always meant to be this way.
the last time i felt this way was... last year? i think. around. late june/early july. if you know me youd know why i guess. so yeah it just feels the same way all over again. maybe i had more... people. then. or maybe not more. closer. people. who took my thoughts away. and loosened the strings that i felt were being tightened around my neck.
when its all so much pent up inside
you feel like throwing up.
i dont even really know what im doing. haha. just zham. just zham all the way. it will be fine.
it will be fine. ;_;
my eyes are hurting again. i should go sleep soon.
hey PRETTY AND HOT SUBCOMM HEAD. you dont read my blog. haha you dont have much time for anything now much less reading my blog la lol. but anyway. all the best for dance night pretty girl :D i can say that i know its tiring and all that. although i cant say i know exactly how it feels like. but go girl :D (then after dn i can flood you with work muahaha) but yes. :D ALL THE BEST.
i will have to post this message for my other two subcomm darlings soon. gwarr...
kay. i gotta go do work. or rest. either one.
i have to rush out stuff by the end of this week. and mug for 3 tests next week. and do homework. blood test results out tomorrow! finally at last i will know my blood type! i have manymany things to do. and i need energy to do it. RED BULL. GIVES YOU WINGS (and so does kotex. ;) ) but i hate red bull. so i will take time to catch up on 8 hours of sleep tonight. or something. or at least 7 hours. ive been falling asleep once my head hits the pillow lately. i will it will happen tonight too.
the doctor did warn me that tetanus shot might give me a fever. i dont mind the fever. but why in heaven does it have to hurt so much that even moving my arm causes it to ache. ): gwarr.
this is the end of our song.
